Relax

My wonderful son spent some serious time looking for music that would relax me. He done good! Check it out ->





"On October 16, 2011, Marconi Union created an eight minute track, titled "Weightless", in collaboration with the British Academy of Sound Therapy.

According to scientists at the Mindlab institution (a commercial 'neuromarketing' company) it induced a 65% reduction in overall anxiety and brought test subjects' resting pulse rates to 35% of their usual resting rates.



:D

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

My Little Miracle

While I do take prescription meds, I have greatly reduced my dosage, and regularly refuse to take what is offered me by my health care providers. I research their suggestions, and have occasionally tried some, but generally decide that the side effects are not tolerable nor are the risks worthwhile. I like to maintain as much independence from modern pharmacology as possible.
I also use a variety of other techniques to help me find the balance I crave. Those sometimes include yoga, massage, hydrotherapy, mindfulness, music and sound therapy, aromatherapy, meditation, exercise, nutrition, and taking supplements. I avoid media that is violent, and over stimulative. I work at engaging in positive thinking, and try to laugh as often as possible. I try to keep on a regular schedule, and I try to surround myself with as calm, clean and minimalist an environment as is possible. (This is not easy while living with a teen and having limited means and a propensity to spend too much time on the internet). I avoid chemicals as much as possible, and I maintain a relationship with nature. I have tinkered with feng shui.
The supplements that I take are as follows:

A one- a-day multivitamin
A high potency B complex
Vitamin C
Vitamin E
Vitamin D ( a must for keeping depression at bay and purportedly very important in staving off cancers)
Fish oil
Flax seed oil (this is full of phytoestrogens and particularly good for your heart health, regularity and good for person with peri or post menopause)
Vitamin B1 (thiamine) which is good for those that regularly imbibe or take pharmaceuticals
Calcium magnesium and zinc complex (good for your nerves and relaxing muscles)
Milk thistle (for the liver)
Soy protein powder with amino acids (amino acids an essential for brain health)
A Super green formula with spirulina, chlorella, and kelp (good for energy and cleaning metals from the body)

I also drink green tea with a local raw honey, too much red wine, and add peppers, spices and herbs and garlic to my diet as often as possible. ( green tea for its antioxidants, the pepper and spices to decrease inflammation, the honey for allergies, what isn’t garlic good for? And the wine because dammit I enjoy it!)
I also eat organic fresh fruits and vegetables, yogurt, nuts, seeds and strive to keep my blood sugar regular by having small frequent meals and snacks.

And I wear a body balm that contains wild yam.

I am in the process of replacing outdated, outsourced, and chemical laden; fixtures, building materials, and furnishings in my home.  I pay attention to what I put on and in my body.

Am I healthy? Heck no! This regimen is what I *strive* to maintain and I regularly miss steps; it’s costly, time consuming, and I am easily distracted. I get lazy, I get hyper focused, I get hyper. I get distracted some more. I drink too much, I work too much, I zone out pretty often. I eat junk food. I’m an internet junkie and a movie addict. I fiddle. I talk a lot. I have people in my life that sometimes need me too much, people close to me that are sick and dying, and not enough people who offer up help and support. I worry about money, I worry about my son. I worry about my health. I worry about the world. I don’t get enough sex. I don’t do enough of the things I really like.

I am a work in progress… always. But the closer I keep to these activities and ideals the better I feel.  Always.

Warning: The above are what I believe to work for me and my personal challenges, are based on my research, and I am not advocating you try any of this without doing your own research and talking to your own professionals. Heck, you may find that what is good for me is horrible for you. That was my big disclaimer ok?! ‘Nuff said.

Here is my latest find, my almost miraculous miracle. Phosphatidyl Choline.  WebMD Some prefer the phosphatidylserine.


I use it to reduce cortisol levels in my body, as cortisol is well known for damaging organs in the body, causing weight gain and memory loss, and for someone such as myself who has chronic stress and anxiety; can have a calming effect and reduce stress and anxiety… two of the biggest enemies in my life. I must say without exaggerating that this supplement had an almost immediate effect. Within hours I had come what my son fondly now refers to me as “ambivalent mom”. I have fewer and weaker panic attacks. I worry less about stuff. I get sleepier sooner after taking this pill. I am a bit more tired during the day, but also I am more relaxed. Being a bit tired beats the heck out of moving from one panic attack to the next throughout the day. My son swears that from his perspective I have become a different person. If you think this may help you I would highly recommend trying this product!
Notes to my Doctor



I am not a lab rat. I am not a diagnosis, I am not a manila folder or a file on a computer, I am a person. Before I went to see a doctor, I believed that I was a bright, creative, passionate, and flawed but good person with infinite possibilities. Now I have become your label. I look in the mirror and see only limitations; the possibilities and potential have faded. Why even try. Whether you recognize it or not, you see me as a corporate lab rat, a number, and a statistic. My heart tells me I am not those things yet you persist. How ironic that you seek only to cure me with toxic and experimental chemicals, not as a human being, for if you were to treat I the human you would have to treat all of me. That would require nourishment, love, caring, help even. I understand it is difficult to love a statistic. Corporations and all their cogs can only love money. I am not money nor do I have much. I have become the unlovable statistic. There is no mercy or compassion for me. It is more profitable to treat than to cure. Fixes are in the eye of the beholder. Please remember that medicine is a practice, of a corporate and political nature, not a science and not necessarily humane.
It is interesting to find that so many experts in your field have so many varied fixes for that diagnosis that is me, the former human being. If all are right and insist others are wrong or recognize their failures, how can all suggest they are the ones with the proper answers for me? Whom do I trust?
Also you insist that all things can be fixed with your chemistry, you fail to admit that some things can be broken; a heart, a spirit, and while at times these things may be mended, it is never with your chemistry, but with humanness; will, drive, love, forgiveness, compassion, perseverance, time. Unless you have a time machine you cannot cure me of those things that are at the core of my trouble.
As with a dog that has been beaten for too long and too many times, I wince at what has hurt me before. You beckon me to it and congratulate yourself at your ingenuity.

Rants:

>Labels

They Call it Behavior Health (?!)

Really? Is that what this is all about? I have a behavior problem. Makes me sound like a little kid that simply needs a time out. Well I’ll tell you I do need a time out, from crap like this and their stupid labels.

I had a prof in college. I never liked her. But we got on well, she liked my enthusiasm, maturity and experience. Heck I helped run half her classes for her, and the projects I put together made the department look good, giving them a lot of local publicity and all. We worked together and I took classes from her for a couple years, (required for my major). One quarter I was not doing well and having a tough time getting my final project done. I wrote her an email explaining that I had bipolar and anxiety issues, hoping for yes… some slack cutting. I suppose it worked, not that I really remember. What I do remember is coming back to school the next quarter and seeing her in the hall. I swear she moved to the far side of the hall while passing me and from that point avoided me like the plague. As if I had somehow changed. I was no longer that star student the department had come to know and rely upon, but now some deranged potentially homicidal maniac. Labeled again.

I am a victim not a criminal.


>I don’t trust drug companies because I’m a paranoid freak

Wrong. I don’t trust drug companies because they do what they are supposed to do, that is act like corporations, quite well. They take care of their shareholders and their bottom line.

>What your doctor doesn’t know

What your doctor doesn’t know is anything about nutrition, supplements, eastern medicine, environmental impacts, who really paid for their textbooks, and the economics of treating versus curing patients. I honestly believe they really do not know the politics of pharmacology. What they do know is that testing for things such as mercury toxicity, vitamin deficiencies, allergies, and so forth is not part of a mental health care protocol and not what their bosses want them to be doing. Their sole function is to label and prescribe medications. The more the merrier. Jump on the assembly line.

My therapist doesn’t know what cortisol is. I had to explain it to him.
My primary care provider doesn’t think that there is mercury in amalgam fillings. After explaining to her that I had recently broken a tooth and that my mouth was full of a disgusting metal taste and that had had a sudden onset of frequent headaches, she did not deem it necessary to test me for mercury toxicity or do anything at all.

>Class warfare

Your doctor has a giant ego and is a snob!


>I am a control Freak

Because I like to have a say what goes on and into my body and brain. If I were really serious about improving my health blind trust would prove that.




>My medical health providers worsen my condition. Stress!